Monday, June 11, 2012

Tired Mommy

If I wasn't so tired...

I wouldn't be so grumpy in the morning and I might actually feel like making a real breakfast;


I would play longer and with more energy when my kids ask me to play tag or "make believe;"

I would feel like going outside more often, even if it's a little warm;

I'd plan fun activities with the kids, like crafts or new games;

I would be more patient with my children and realize they are JUST KIDS;

I would feel angry less often;

I would be more silly with my kids;

I would spend less time on the computer;

I would have more meaningful scripture study no matter what time of the day I choose to study;

I would exercise more often (more often than never, which is about as often as I exercise right now);

I wouldn't get so overwhelmed when I make dinner and everyone is seeking my attention at the same time;

I would be happier.

Why am I so tired?

I'm the mother of four children younger than six.

My husband is gone at school for four full days a week, from 9a to 11p.

I don't eat healthy enough.

I'm a nursing mama.

I have a four month old who goes to bed at 7p (yay) but wakes up at 3a to eat and thinks 6a is rise and shine time.

Worst of all, I go to bed at midnight every night. Why? To spend time with James because I miss him and I want to feel like a wife and woman rather than just a mommy, mama, mom.

I WANT to go to bed earlier. I just don't know how to do it. So here I am, tired.



5 comments:

Brittany H. said...

:( I am having one of those days over here too! It is the second day the kids are out of school and I know the only way to survive the next 2 months is by being organized and having things planned, but where is my energy? The sprinkler in the backyard can only entertain for so long. hehe That is a huge bummer about James's schedule...Do you have any good sitters you trust? They are my lifeline!

Kayla said...

Amen!!

Michelle said...

I'm sorry you are so tired. I feel that way often too. Don't beat yourself up for not having crafts and fun things planned all the time. That is most definitely not what makes a great mom. You've got four little ones, one of which is still pretty dependent, and virtually no help from husband for half the week. Cut yourself some slack. It's okay if you're too tired to play all the time. There will be more time for that when Lily gets a little bigger. I think you're amazing. And I wish I could take the kids off your hands for a day. Love you lots.

Shala said...

Oh my goodness, I feel the exact same way! Can I just copy the entire blog post onto mine? Ditto. Ditto. Ditto. When you figure it out, please let me know!

Denise Gasser said...

You are doing great Lydia. Keep it up. That sounds so EXHAUSTING, but I really do respect you so much for what you are doing. I am barely keeping up with one at this point. You are such a good mom!